Friday, February 15, 2013

Hello Mr. Heartbreak


It was the week that was. Phones rang, Rosemary Clooney sang, men stood in lines and wondered aloud why we were so busy.

6 designers, 1 flower cleaner, 4 drivers, assorted sales clerks and one broken heart: mine.

It is time for GG to move on.  She told me Tuesday morning. I was going to keep it to myself until Valentines' was over, but an acid reflux attack after lunch convinced me otherwise.

I had already text Shelley, she told Steve and Jen. They made me feel so much better I started telling my co workers and my friends.

So in between 100's of arrangements, I cried and laughed and suggested a new special: Love Walked Out The Door.


But no one was buying.

I expect I'll process this with you all as I did the quitting smoking.

It won't always be pretty but it will always be real.

And there will be kittens. 

It's always freaking something isn't it?









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  2. I'm sending you virtual goodies: a big tin of homemade cookies, the boxed set of Battlestar Galactica, and two weeks in Hawaii.

    Loved Walked Out the Door made me smile. Maybe some get-real versions of Miss Pickering's v-day slogans are in order. We could have a contest.

    Thank goodness for kittens!(Though mine walked across the keyboard just as I was publishing the now-deleted comment.)

    xo,
    Jen

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    1. Will the cookies be oatmeal? I'm going to Hawaii?

      Perhaps Miss P can come and we can hammer out the contest rules while lying on the beach?

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  3. I don't know you. But I do know kittens. And Hearts. Once love has walked out, I'd suggest leaving the door open.

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    1. That is an excellent suggestion. Luckily spring is coming. Door and windows?

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  4. Really? Oh so sorry. Delurking here - I follow you, found through Slow Lane Life - love the flowers and especially the kittens. I have 3 cats so yes, I am a crazy cat person, love 'em.
    Oh man (strike that) oh woman - how hard. You poured a lot of your love for GG into the blog, it was felt. I don't know what else to say.
    Hugs, warm wishes, chin up and all that. Just don't start smoking! (I am now quit one full year!) Don't even think of it! Think of chocolate instead. Kitty, West Coast, USA

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    1. Kitty I know, you are so right. that is my big struggle right now. I promised to call my friend Susan if i even thought about lighting up and I will. Call her i mean, i think about it all the time. gulp.

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  5. Sorry to hear Jane. Never a good time for that to happen but around V day would be the pits.
    I'm so glad the day is over. I hate thinking about my own disastrous love life! I can empathise with your emotions, I've been there recently.
    Sending a big hug x

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  6. I can't better Dinahmow's suggestion of leaving the door open..... Take care of yourself; hug those gorgeous kittens; carry on making those beautiful arrangements; don't start smoking again! I haven't read your blog for very long, so I don't 'know' you, but I know where you're at and its a bummer - but it'll get better (promise!) X

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  7. oh! I am sorry to hear this Jane. Please don´t start smoking again! Your kittens will thank.

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  8. That must have been crazy hard to deal with all those Valentine customers when you just want to shout out that LOVE SUCKS. Not sure what to say other than I am sorry your heart is broken. Advice.......keep very busy, talk about it often to good friends because you need to process it over and over until it hurts less....ask your friends for help to keep busy. Is the lab staying with you? Other than that I'm not sure what else to say. I've been there and know how wretched it is.

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    1. me too, razmataz, "been there, done that"
      but OH, what terrible timing. like getting fired the Monday after Thanksgiving and you just came back from a weekling trip all full of familial live, gratitude for your
      many blessings and a week's worth of credit card debt. been there, done that, too!

      (((((((((flwr jane))))))

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  9. Oh Jane, dear girl. I am totally lost for words. I can only send you my heartfelt love and a huge hug. Love you, thinking of you, wishing I lived closer. Bxxx

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  10. Noooooooo....... will email you. Big hugs and much sympathy. DON'T SMOKE!!! This is bad enough. x

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  11. Well, fuck.

    Going through some adjustments over here myself, Jane, and you're right ... there's always something.

    You can handle this because you're awesome.

    Sue
    xo

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  12. Really sorry to hear your news. Impressive timing, too. I can only echo what everyone else has said. Keep busy, hug those cats; this too will pass. And if you want to vent to us, please do.

    Thinking of you.

    Jan x

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  13. It's nice to see so much love and support coming your way. Isn't blogland wonderful? Hope you're hanging in there.

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    1. Hanging in there with a smile on my face. Talk about the wind beneath my wings:-)

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  14. I'm tearing up. Not one cross word about GG. This is the love you engender and we all follow your lead.
    I'm so glad you're my friend.

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  15. oh jane. what a year this has started out to be. they say it is all for a reason...we'll see about that. sending you love and sympathy. xoxo

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  16. I have no words for you, nothing I or anybody else says will make you feel better right now. I do have a big virtual hug. Time is your friend and so am I. Email if you need anything.

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  17. Was thinking about you this morning--how you are my North Star in the blog world. Real life with humor and warmth (flowers and kittens too). Nora Ephronish. As this post exemplifies. And what Shelley wrote.

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  18. We have all been through the "love stinks" part but it was never just that. Wishing you fond memories and a coping process which makes you strong. Process away here anytime.

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  19. Dear Jane

    I'm another lurker and found your superb blog two seasons ago via Marie's 66 Square Feet. Compelled to connect with you now and congratulate you on your ability to always be so truthful, funny and especially warm-hearted about your life and the 2 and 4 legged friends who you share yourself with. You deserve to get everything you give out .... and more now. Remember EGBOK (Everything's Going to Be OK) - much love Pam

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  20. I've been following your blog for some time and you come across as just a lovely person. Love will inevitably be back in your life. Sending hugs your way. Ann

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  21. I am so sorry. I found your blog via Marie's 66 Square Feet. Hang in there. And process away in blogland.

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  22. Oh Jane, I can't believe what I've just read. I'm so so upset for you. Shout and vent as often as you need my friend. Anything I can do, just ask. New Zealand's only another 10 or so hours on from Hawaii. It's a thought! I'm thinking of you.xxx

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  23. A virtual hug from the West coast. Be strong and be kind to yourself. Take it a day at a time and hugs from kitties should help a great deal.

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  24. Aw. So sorry. So hard when this happens, even when you know it'll pass, even when you know love will walk back in. Sending you hugs and thinking your idea about the bouquet has legs.

    When I got divorced I thought Pottery Barn ought to set up a Divorce Registry.

    None of this is helping, but I hope my warm wishes might, a tad.

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  25. Another de-lurker. I love (and aspire to) your honesty and cool approach to life, as well as your floral talent &know-how. Be well. Hugs from Canada. xo

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  26. Sick to my stomach. Will you please come spend some time with me (and mitchell, of course)? Open room,open hearts, open arms. Love you Girl. XOXOXO

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    1. oh thank you Webb. Maybe when it gets warmer? That would be lovely.

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  27. I'm so sorry...as if the mayhem of Valentine's Day wasn't enough. Really nothing I can add that hasn't been said already...

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  28. Hi Jane, I am glad you let your sad feeling out of your heart. That is the only way to heal. Sadness is more bearable when your friends can feel it with you. I am out of town right now, but will go see you at the shop when I get back. XOXOXO Christa

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  29. Hi Jane,
    As many others have said, I don't know you in person, but feel that I do from your wonderful blog. I am so very, very sorry about your heartbreak. I can tell that you are an amazing person, I so enjoy hearing about your life, and I know that there is so much love out there for you. I hope that you feel this and that when you're ready another special love will come around the corner. Thinking of you!
    xo, Heather

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  30. Oh Jane. Consider this the hug I would give you if I could. As someone else mentioned "leave the door open". Something awesome is on your horizon. You arin my thoughts and in my heart. xo

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  31. I am so very sorry. Sending you hugs and a shoulder to lean on. Bonnie

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  32. So sad to have just learned of your heartache -

    Do what you must to get through this emotional chaos knowing that when you least expect it, more fierce, wonderful love will find its way into your life...

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  33. Oh dear Jane,

    I am so very sorry. I have no words to express my sorrow for you. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

    Helen xx

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  34. Jane... This is most unexpected. You are clearly an exceptional catch. Sending love to you from San Francisco.

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  35. I don't have anything insightful to say, but I'm sorry. Cuddle with your kitties and if you ever wanted to get away, you're always welcome in The LPV. xo.

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  36. Dry shoulders and open arms all around you, Jane.
    Found you through Marie's 66 and Slow Lane Life. Having had a challenging couple of years myself, I woke early on New Year's Day with a renewed sense of positivity, hope and strength. I throw all these your way with all my might : ) xx

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