Isn't it funny when what could seem like a BIG deal, for example, a really BIG birthday (sshhhh Shelley), turns out to be the best thing ever.
It's got to be a change in attitude.
I remember my birthday last year, 6 months out from my breakup feeling shattered and slightly shamed. Why, because I wasn't in a relationship for my birthday?
Did I think I was less of a person for being single? Less deserving of cake?
If so, this past year has proven that theory to be completely false.
I have learned so much. Not to let fear guide my decisions. Not to be afraid to ask for help. To listen to what I need and want and when it's possible to give it to myself. Not to be afraid to say yes. Not to be afraid to say no.
To let new people into my life and as a result have my life color enhanced by their presence.
I survived a breakup, shoulder surgery, flying, riding metros at rush hours, traveling alone to meet people I only knew thru the internet. I did this with the help of loving friends, a sense of humor, a daily dose of gratitude and the support of you.
I am finally becoming the person I want to be.
For this I am extremely grateful.
I'm not even halfway there, but I'm learning to love the journey. Empowerment is a glorious thing.
Does anybody remember that Dixie Chicks song, "The Long Way Around"?
Story of my life. maybe yours too....
Now I'm gonna crank up that song, run a hot bath, slip in a dollop of Laura Mercier amber vanilla honey bath gel, sent to me by the ever missed Elle, (merci cheri), and chant thank you to the universe.
Then a good nights sleep.
Now that's happy birthday making.
xo J
